I want to share more about my life in this blog. I still haven’t really gotten into the blogging thing fully. Initially I thought I would use it just to share some thoughts, ideas, poetry, etc. about spirituality and religion, which has been a pretty significant part of my journey lately. Especially since a few friends at my church also have blogs, it seemed a very safe place to post my abstract ideas without getting into the messy reality of my own life. I have come to the realization that it’s really hard for me to share my life journey with others, that a part of me (i.e. ego) is always putting up walls.
About half a year ago I decided to explore new career possibilities. I have been a software developer/consultant for about the last seven years. I really enjoy the problem solving and the creativity involved in developing software apps. At the same time, I don’t enjoy the isolation of working with computers more than with humans, and I have become less and less interested in business, and even technology. At least technology as the center of our life. In a world ruled by modern economics where efficiency is God, progress is salvation, this is the direction that the world is headed in, the direction that is hard to escape if I’m in the business world.
At the same time that I’ve become less interested in business and technology, I have serious questions about giving my time, mind, focus to the goals of business and “progress”. What does God want me to do with my life? In what role will I use my full potential, so I don’t waste the gift that God gave me? I know the possibilities are endless, it is only a matter of God showing the way. I have the privilege at this point in my life of not needing to make much money as I don’t have anyone to support but myself. I also know that that a lot of necessity is imagined. We always have many more choices than we think we have. In America, many people have a lot of necessities because they feel they always need to follow what their neighbor is doing.
I look forward to sharing more about my journey in the days ahead.
Hey Otto – I am glad that you are sharing your thoughts and I am glad that I am able to read the thoughts you are sharing with others. Keep striving for the truth and allowing God to make those changes in you. Your journey is important and the way is through Jesus. I am glad that we can learn from one another. God bless you brother.